Sometimes, I feel like I get on God’s nerves.
I feel like I bring Him an issue, He gives me an answer, and I can’t figure out how to make it work. Something like the video below.
Did you see how he ended up exactly where he started? That’s how I feel. I ask all of the right questions. I do what He tells me to do and I feel like I come up with nothing. I know God wouldn’t send me on a wild goose chase. There is a lesson I have to learn; maybe I keep missing it. Could this be my wilderness experience? I don’t want to spend the next 40 years wandering around hoping that I won’t see the same rock that I carved “Sophia was here” in last week. I certainly don’t want to die here. So what do I do now?
I bet you thing the next part of this post has the answer to that question, huh? Psych. It doesn’t. I don’t have the answers. I have to be patient and keep praying and keep wandering until it is revealed to me. I hope you stick with me as I work through this difficult period in my life. I am being as open and transparent as I can. I find that is the only way I can be right now. I have to be true to myself and true to you. However many of you are are there that actually read my thoughts.
I find myself in a few different seasons of life at the same time and sharing it seems to be the only way to stay sane.